“Blushing” by Andrea Gibson


(I find this so amazingly beautiful and moving that it’s become a personal favorite.)

“I’ve been told when a human dies the Soul misses the Body.
Actually grieves, grieves the loss of its hands and all they could hold.
Misses the kissing lips, the searching tongue, the throat closing shy
reading out loud on the first day of school.

The Soul misses the weather of the chest,
the hard weather when love walks away.
Misses the stubbed toe, the churning belly,
and the funny bone. The Soul still asks, Why did the funny bone do that?

The Soul misses the tears and the thirsty garden cheeks.
Misses how the Body could sleep through a dream.
What else could sleep through a dream? What else could laugh?
What else can wrinkle the smile’s autograph?

The Soul misses the falling eyelash waiting to be wished.
The river wrist screaming away the blade.
The underdog heart winning, winning, winning the game.

The Soul misses the lisp, and the limp, and the coyote mind
always plotting a new shape, a new size.

The Soul misses how hard the eyes fought off history to see clearly,
to see the holy bruise- blue from that army of blood rushing to the wound’s side.
When a human dies the Soul scours the universe for something blushing,
for something shaking in the cold, for something with teeth
biting its own nails to calm the panic nerve,
for something stretching the word “brave” up up into love.

The Soul misses love, that swinging chandelier in the shack-castle chest.
Even misses the grief fist-fighting the light,
breaking the light’s jaw, spitting on its faith.
“What else can hunger?” the Soul asks.
“What else can freckle? What else can clumsy?”
The fist that was never taught to curl- curls.
The teeth that were never taught to clench- clench.
The Body that was never taught to make love makes love
like a hungry ghost digging its way out of the grave.

The Soul misses the un-forever of old age, the skin that no longer fits.
The Soul misses every single day the Body was sick, the NOW it forced,
the HERE it built from the fever.

The Soul misses the way the body inflamed to hold its own loneliness.
Misses the legs aching up the stairs, misses the fear
that climbed up the vocal chords to curse the wheelchair.

The Soul misses how the Body could not let go.
What else could hold on so tightly to everything?
What else could hear the chain of a swing
and fall to its knees on the kitchen floor?
What else could touch the metal grate of a screen door and taste lemonade?
What else could come back from a war and not come back…
would hold its own ears, curled up in the basement on the 4th of July
then walk up the stairs to hold a daughter, to sing a lullaby?

When a human dies the Soul moves through the galaxy
trying to describe how the Body breathed, how it cried for its mother,
how a wound would heal given nothing but time.
Do you understand? Nothing in space ever believes.
No ray of light can fathom the speed of terror, the heat of shame,
a belly full of butterflies, the fingertips pulling that first gray hair
and throwing it away.
“How could we possibly believe in goose bumps,” the stars say.
“How could we possibly believe?”

Reposted from ifallfastformuchness

Tiny Wonders

“I searched for myself in the mountain but found it in a grain of sand.” — Jean Mishra.

This is a photo of sand magnified 250 times through the microphotographic talents of Gary Greenberg.

Grains of sand magnified 250 times

Dr. Greenberg is an artist, inventor and scientist.  He’s devoted his life to revealing the unspeakable and delicate beauty of nature.

Rosemary magnified 125 times

He earned a Ph.D. in biomedical research and went on to invent high-definition, 3-dimensional light microscopes and was issued 18 different U.S. patents.

Rose zindanfel wine magnified 300 times

He began his career as a photographer and filmmaker.  His work includes the first Superman movie.  He transformed human pancreatic cancer cells into the planet Krypton.

Sugar magnified 125 times

What appears to be a colorful modern abstract sculpture is sugar magnified 125 times.

A basil leaf magnified 125 times

This dew covered field is a basil leaf magnified 125 times.

Dragon fruit magnified 125 times

A fantasy amethyst cave is really a dragon fruit magnified 125 times.

A strawberry magnified 125 times

An amber jewel atop a ruby mountain is a strawberry magnified 125 times.

Grain of sand magnified 125 times

A star is a grain of sand.

Sand magnified 250 times

Dr. Gary Greenberg has shown us the beauty of the universe isn’t just in the grandeur of it’s vastness, but is equally in its minutiae.  He’s shown us there is tremendous beauty in the things so easily glanced over.  Art is everywhere, even in the dust.

See Dr. Greenberg’s pictures of the moon dust collected during the Apollo 11 moon mission here.

Moon dust

Interview with Paul Mueller of Windwalker Accessories

Scorpion necklace done in hematite, rutilated quartz and titanium.

I’ve had the pleasure of knowing Paul for several years and I’d like to share with you one of his many talents.  Paul creates insightful, meaningful and very special jewelry pieces.  These are not just beautiful.  They also are done with very loving, meaningful, and spiritual intentions and exacting attention to detail which can be custom made per the wishes of the wearer, or left to Paul’s keen insights.

Jean:  Hi Paul, thanks for sharing with my readers.  Would you mind telling us a little bit about yourself?

Paul:  My name, is Paul F. Mueller III.  I also go by Nicodemai Windwalker, which is my artist’s name.  “Nicodemai” is the name that signifies my religious beliefs.  “Windwalker means traveller.  WIndwalker, is a surname given to me by my adopted mother, and coincidentally also the name we chose for our humble little shop.

I’ve always been an artist deep down from the time I got my first clarinet at age eight.  I knew that art was my calling.  Whether it has been drawing, playing music, or making things that are “pretty”, art has always been what I wanted to do.

Sadly, life doesn’t always work that way.  For the last 14 years I’ve been working on computers.  Building them and maintaining them.  A far cry from the happiness I get out of making a necklace and getting the feedback that it is treasured.

Recently though, at 33, life threw me some curve balls and I ended up with the opportunity to pursue my artistic side.   I haven’t stopped for a day since.  Creating, writing, drawing, making objects has become all-consuming.  It’s still an infant shop, but it’s mine and I truly love what I’m doing; making people happy with such a simple little trinket.  That’s what really matters, I think.  Finding something you enjoy doing, and if given the chance to do what YOU love, please, don’t let it slip through your fingers.

I have never felt such satisfaction, pride, or enjoyment in anything that I have done in my life.

Jean:  Well, I think you’re well on your way.  What is it that most inspires you, Paul, in making your creations?

Paul:  I’ll try not to sound like an insane person, but energy inspires me.  I’ve always been a creative person though, and that lends a big part to the things I make.  Mostly though, the happiness on a person’s face when they truly like what I do, is my biggest drive of them all.

I make things with a certain energy in mind.  Take for instance, the turtle necklace.  When making it, I focused on the turtle, what it represents, and how it lives.  The owner of that piece tells me it “feels like water”, and also that it feels “tranquil, and relaxing”.  Hearing that feedback, I believe I did exactly what it was I set out to do.  Capturing an energy.  Here’s a photo of that piece for you. 

Here’s a little more though to further explain my process.  I always start, in the case of a necklace, with the centerpiece.  I meditate, on what that represents.  I then choose stones that line up with that particular “theme” or energy.  Using the turtle as an example, I chose stones that carry the feeling of water and calm strength.  As I set the stones onto their cord, I focus that energy or feeling into the piece, stone by stone.  Once done with a piece i’m usually pretty drained, but I feel the results are more than worth a little of my energy being used exerted.

Jean:  Do you feel yourself drawn more often to certain stones than others?

Paul:  Yes.  I absolutely LOVE working with onyx.  It carries a very strong energy, and for the most part, is “neutral”.  Also, tigers eye because I find it absolutely GORGEOUS.  To be honest, I find beauty in most all of the stones I work with and I pay attention to what energies they possess.  Some stones are just not suited for some “themes” or energies.  For instance, if I was making a piece for a fire-signed person, stones that convey water are just out of the question.

Jean:  That makes sense.  Do you feel there is a purpose behind what you create?

Paul:   Yes, absolutely.  In the case of a custom ordered piece, I go to great lengths to try and make it as good a “fit” for the client as possible.

Jean:  You say you intend a spiritual purpose for the item and you can you somewhat define what the purpose is?

Paul:  Absolutely.  However, that really falls upon the wearer to be aware of those purposes.  I have a good example of that, but sadly no picture of it.  A recent client, a dear friend of mine, sent me a tourmaline shard ready to be set onto a custom “chain”.  She requested that the energy was specific for protections.  So after a little research, and knowing she is an Earth sign, I set to work, with jade and tigers eye.  Both Earth element stones, both for protection.  It came out beautifully.

Jean:  I sure wish you had a picture of it.  Would you mind sharing a few more pictures and the stories behind them?

Paul:  Sure, but I don’t normally take images of the custom pieces, as they aren’t available for the general public.  I like to keep the personal aspect private for work like that.  Here’s one, that was for my ex girlfriend of four and a half years.

Necklace: pentacle, onyx and tigers eye.

After I moved here, we were trying to keep things all nice and the way we were, but that didnt turn out so well.  She was new to her chosen “path”, so I took it upon myself to fashion her a protection piece, using a traditional symbol of our faith as the centerpiece; onyx for strength, tigers eye for protection and clarity.  She absolutely loves it, told me before our parting that it really helped her to keep calm and focused in her meditations.  It also helped her own energy be more balanced.

Here, we have an example of a piece, for a friend, who quite simply saw it and had to have it.  He wears it every day.

Necklace: ankh, onyx and dalmation jasper.

Jean: It’s beautiful

Paul: Thank you.

Jean:  What energies do you feel this piece projects?

Paul:  The ankh is one of the oldest symbols of protection out there.  Jasper aids in quick thinking and promotes organization and seeing projects through.  It’s funny that he was drawn to that piece, in a way.  I’ve known him for years and he can tend to start something and not finish them.  (chuckles)  I suppose here is where we can say that really, it’s all in how the wearer perceives things, in the sense that the applications could be, well, restricted only by understanding.

Jean:  That makes perfect sense.  What are the materials you prefer to work with, aside from the stones?

Paul:  For the cording, I use fine silver wire as I find it a wonderful conductor of energy.  For the clasping I also use silver as with the charms.  I’m partial to silver all ways around I guess.  I’ll work with gold though if requested.

Jean:  Historically, isn’t it true silver is thought to be more “pure”?

Paul:  Yes.  In fact at one point in history it was more valuable than gold.  Also, gold can’t “kill a werewolf”.  (joking there)

Jean:  (Laughs)  You’ve just completed a custom piece, I understand; a rosary in which you even did each link by hand.  Can you tell us a little about this?

Paul:  Wow that was an undertaking.  I used 398 hand linked silver rings, 60 blood stones set onto silver bars with “eyes” at each end so they could accept and be made into the chain and also set onto the bars by hand.  I did it in the traditional “style”, as requested, but was given liberty to add a little of my “pagan flair” as my client called it.  I asked his birthday and did a little research into his birthstones.  Happily, I found that the blood stone not only was one of his birthstones, but also a wonderful stone as metaphor for “the blood of the Christ”.  At that point the choice was rather obvious.

Jean:  You have to love that synchronicity.

Paul:  Oh absolutely. (Smiles)

Jean:  If someone is interested in having you make a piece for them, how would they contact you?

Paul:  My email address is :  mueller.paul25@yahoo.com

I’ll soon be building a website for the humble little shop as soon as I can pick some web development software that I like and will suit my needs.

Jean:  Great!  When you have a link, be sure to share it with me and we’ll post it here.  Thank you so much, Paul, for taking the time to share your work with my readers.  It’s definitely something special.

PaulI: Oh no, thank YOU, it really was my pleasure.

One last look at two more of Paul’s pieces:

Necklace: Dolphin, white and blue cats eye with sodalite.

Necklace: Owl, jasper and onyx.